We are home… we were released on Wednesday. After spending several days staring at the same 8 walls, I had to get out of there. I spent Thursday and Friday running around seeing friends, being happy that I could. The experience was extremely taxing. I was heartbroken to return to a hospital room.
My Pastor says that these are all tests so that I can have a testimony, but how many do I need? How many tests? Why can’t I just live? I try my best to be a decent human being, loving my neighbor, forgiving those who’ve hurt me. I get so tired and frustrated because I’m a faithful tither and work in the church.
I’m trying to be a faithful servant, but how do I continue? I know this is short… does anyone have any answers for me?